Ayeshah Rose Reclaimed

My regular blog readers know that I was in two minds about going on this journey from my earlier blog entry Me vs. Me. Cyprus for me is a spiritual retreat because it is where my spiritual guide resides. I didn't go to sunbathe or party. I went to work on my ego, reflect and strengthen my faith. When we got there we were immediately hit by tests and these tests were the reason we had been apprehensive about this journey in the first place. Thankfully we overcame them all. We learned how to deal with certain situations and simply say "this was meant be". It wasn't easy and some tests I'm sure we failed but we learned from them. Cyprus has been an emotional rollercoaster for me. I'm even finding it hard to write this blog entry without bursting in to tears. I went from not wanting to go, counting down the days to leave, to not wanting to come home at all. I met some amazing and wonderful characters from all over the world (some were not so wonderful but that...

After writing my last blog entry I realised: this whole journey is a test. It's not just about me. Anything that is asked of me is part of that journey. Helping me to improve myself. Helping me to become less selfish. Helping to reduce my ego. It's not easy, believe me but it's all part and parcel of this whole journey; not just for this here and now but for eternity. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

There’s a constant battle that we face on a daily basis and I’m not talking about the battle we face to wake up in the morning and go to work.  Nor am I talking about the battle to get a seat on the tube or the arguments we have with our partners/parents about who should do the washing up.  I’m not even talking about the battle we have when hunger strikes and our heart says “chocolate” and our mind cries “think of the calories”.  No I’m talking about the personal battle we face with ourselves aka our EGO’S. I don’t know about you but I am an over thinker; my gosh it is one of the worse traits to have.  I probably shouldn’t even admit to this but I even over think what I should wear to work the next day, to the point where I can’t sleep at night!!  Sad I know.  Anything I am experiencing in life gets over thought.  I over think what I should and shouldn’t do or what I have and haven’t done or what I’ve said or haven’t said.  It’s annoying but my ...